Does anyone else feel this way?

I know the saying goes, " being a mother is a thankless job." I know I'm supposed to see all the good I do, the purpose I have. After picking my kids up all week every week. Breaking up fights telling each one how special and loved they are. Easing their fears and comforting them through rough nights. Daily encouraging my man. Praising him for all he does great and small for our family. Easing insecurities for all 5 of them, and there are a lot. IDK, I'm drained after months of having to be "the strong one", even when I am at my weakest I feel like I can not be bc, they won't let me!! They can't handle it, they let me know clear as day they can't. Yet, they don't make the effort to pick me up, they don't even realize how scared and insecure I am at times, heck, most of the time! I feel like all those damn performance appraisals from jobs where I was sure they just didn't want to give me the higher raise so I got "meets expectations" on everyone. I feel that way about life, I feel like I'm just meeting expectations, despite trying so hard for exceeds! I feel like I'm putting in my all and It's not worth the praise I give them for just trying. I try I really do to bring myself up to tell myself I am amazing but, it only works so long when I"m the only one saying it. IDK, I guess I'm just feeling a pitty party. I've been making the best of bad situations a lot lately and all I get is "how hard it is for everyone else". Like doing laundry with a broken washer and cooking amazing meals from a toaster oven and microwave is so hard on their lives! (Our oven broke, too.)I'm sry, I just needed to vent.I'm going to finish my wine and clean the fridge out now. I just told the kids device time is over for the day, pray for me!