My dream to be a mother...

My boyfriend and I have been trying for over 4 years. the 1st year was not so much of trying.. but me just being off birth control and having unprotected sex. 2nd year i started to get worried. I kept having faith and leaving up to God. I always believed that having children are a gift from god. I got my self checked by my ob/gyn everything came back fine. I have regular periods.. i did the body temps.. the ovulation kits.. i did it all.. I was 31-32 yrs old when all this was going on. on the 2nd year in October i got a positve pregnancy test. I was shocked!! i could not believe it. i took a test on a tuesday.. But by Saturday i started bleeding. i went to my ob she said i had a chemical pregnacy. i was completely heart broken. The following February i had another positve pregnancy test........ few days later i started to bleed. i called my ob and asked to run some test and see what is going on. I found out that I didnt produce the hormone progesterone to keep pregnancy. I had an answer of why at least.. gave me peace of mind.. a kind of closure.... its almost been 2yrs since then. I stop trying.. I didnt want to keep disappointing my self and my boyfriend. We went through so much hard time and heart break because of this.. It almost cost us our relationship. the only good thing i got out of not succeeding on getting pregnat.. is making my relationship stronger with my bf. I stop putting my life on hold beacuse i can't get pregnat. I want to be happy. ill be honest i still get sad at times when i see pregnancy pictures. It hard not get sad from other peoples joys of getting pregnant. I finally have my faith again that one day my bf and i will have a baby and make our family. Pray for our journey.. wish us luck.. and maybe if God willing ill post a picture a positive pregnancy test of my future baby ... 🙏👪🤰👶