Not sure how much more I can take

I'm not posting this for attention, and I'm not posting this to have anyone feel sorry for me . I'm posting this because I just need someone to vent to. I feel like everything is falling apart , I don't even know who I am anymore . I have family and friends , but they all have their own problems and I don't want to bother or worry them with mine .. I'm 21 living with my boyfriend of 3 years and he's becoming violent again ... Tonight was horrible... we are renting .. but now there's holes all in the walls, broke doors, he broke my elephant lamp, a fan , and picture frames ... I don't have the money to fix all of this stuff or even pay someone who can ... he drug me off the bed . Pushed me.. threw stuff at me, said so many bad things about me ... and tonight it really got to me and I'm having a hard time dealing with it ...