Should I feel this way?

So me and my bf of 2 years split. We had a baby together, he's now 8 months and the best thing that has ever happened to me! Well, mine and my ex relationship was so amazing in the beginning but as time went on he started getting jealous over any guy I talked to, even if they were just my friends I've known forever. He made me delete them, block them, he even talked shit to some of them saying he'd fight them. He got controlling as well. Would think I'm going off to fuck guys anytime I went out with girlfriends or even to my own moms house. He'd get upset that I even glance towards a guys direction. He rubs it in my face anytime he buys something for me, yet he's the one that offers! Says he's the only one with the job.. WELL YEAH CAUSE HE TOLD ME TO STAY HOME WITH OUR SON. He's always angry & if it was someone else that pissed him off he takes it out on me- yells in my face or ear. He has pushed me. He gets mad or upset when I post a photo of myself- says I do it for attention from other guys. Doesn't trust me at all and I have been faithful to him since day 1. Never gave him a reason not to trust me. We are always arguing about something. Says he's the only one that buys our son shit, THATS NOT TRUE. I do when I have money and when I can. Always snoops on my Facebook or instagram and stalks it- gets mad when guys like my post. Even memes that I post he gets mad and thinks I shared them from some other guy. Sometimes I feel like we don't have that connection where you can talk to your spouse about anything and everything. I try to just tel him how I feel about myself or anything really and he always gets upset or mad about something and turns it around on me. Sometimes we go car rides without even saying a word to eachother. Like wtf. Basically, I'm not happy and the things he's done has pushed me away. I believe a relationship should have trust, communication, no jealousy and controlling behavior. I guess what I'm trying to ask is, should I feel bad for leaving him because I do.. & he's making me feel like he's done nothing wrong!! Says I wanna be single so I can party and be a hoe.

I finally have all my girlfriends back and even my guy friends that I had lost & I find myself feeling guilty for talking to my guy friends but I shouldn't right? It's nothing sexual or even trying to get at eachother. Just talking. Ugh I'm a mess.. idk how to feel.