My Sex Secret

Hey guys!

So I've been having sex with my boyfriend for almost twice every month. He took my virginity and slowly the pain started lessening and the pleasure started kicking in.......However, last night , from not seeing him in almost one month, we had sex but this time , it's like I really wasnt feeling it :/

Like, when he was in me and stroking hard core... it still didn't give me any pleasure and I felt horrible inside. His size is pretty small than average so ladies , what should I do?

I know they have toys and all but it's him that I really wanna do this with but is it bad that he's having a great time but in reality I just don't feel it deep enough 🙃 and have to pretend to moan to not make him feel bad. I truly do love him.

Any advice ?