Confession to make

I’ve been TTC for 13 months now. I’ve asked a few Obgyn’s to do some tests and try to assist me in anyway but they (all 3 of them) continue to refer me to fertility specialists. My husband refuses so that’s not an option. Yesterday I actually went to the Obgyn under the pretense of abnormal uterine bleeding. Desperate, I know but when checking my uterus and overies she suggest a possible cyst on the right side. So I’m getting an ultrasound and having my progesterone and thyroid checked. I wish I knew of an Obgyn who would do some exploratory tests which might give me some insight as to why I’m struggling... Why is it so fucking hard to get a little help when TTC naturally.