ppd..

I’m suffering so badly.. i love my daughter so much and i feel so guilty with the way my thoughts have been. I keep finding myself wishing i would have given her up for adoption.. i cry constantly. I never get sleep. I never can leave my house. I’m stuck home by myself all day everyday. I don’t even talk to my family anymore, i have no friends. I’m just alone always and it’s driving me insane. I’m a SAHM and i despise it. I find myself resenting my boyfriend because he gets to go out everyday and he gets to work. (Btw he’s a carpenter and doesn’t have set work hours, he works everyday and some days has to work all day long which is why i am forced not being able to work. I just hate my new life. I love my daughter so much but i just have no control over my life anymore. I can’t work, can’t do my college full time anymore.. I’m so depressed constantly. Having panic attacks constantly. Idk what to do.