Dear people on my schools colorguard team

I feel really left out and disliked. I feel that no matter how hard I try I still can't impress anyone. I don't think any of you realize how terrible I feel about myself by the end of practice because I don't think I deserve to be on our team. I wish you all would make more of an effort to be friends with me because right now it seems only one if you is making that effort. Because of how you treat me it is nearly impossible to go a without seeing my bf and having a good when I have to put up with you. So please try to be nicer. Please especially since my dad past away in the summer... You guys also seemed to forget my birthday but remembered everyone else's. I guess I truly am the most hated person on the. team.