First OB appointment since 2014

Lost my baby in 2014 haven’t been back since until today. Irregular periods uterus pain and family history and all that!?.... ttc on and off for a while. She wants a full year of ttc which is what I been doing but WHAT? A year of ttc after seeing her!? She wanted to put me on BC which was denied by me with irritation. Now I’m just waiting on my blood test results... I got sticked with a needle and my vagina poked all to be told thank you and be on my way... idk how to feel... happy I finally went but I feel like I’m further from conceiving than I was:(

UPDATE: a woman called and verified I wasn’t pregnant. But when a different woman called about my probiotics questions I broke down about my sadness in a negative test. SO BASICALLY I wasn’t informative enough this morning to my dr. So she’s sending me a male/female infertility information packet to fill out and start testing for infertility. When I called my honey to tell him he was wonderful about it said that he will do whatever it takes to get answers and just wants me to stop stressing out so much about it😂 ha he’s funny and also right. I am happy that I got heard and I am almost excited to move forward getting answers.