difficult

I get worried about posting in this group for shaytan might get a hold of me and let me say something wrong as a beliver. as I am writing this with tears in my eyes, I know everything we're suppose to believe. I know that Allah knows best, that this is a test, I know the only thing I can do is pray and wait. I know I am suppose to be thankful for everything I have, but it's getting way too difficult for me to step outside my room let alone my house. I dont want to hear about others pregnancies or see them and congratulate them. I am happy for them but seeing them kills me too much. I am starting to believe that this test from Allah is way too difficult and there is no way I can pass it. please pray for me my dear sisters for I am in need of so much duaa.