I caught him....

It was a morning like any other. My DH got up early to get ready for work while I attempt to continue to sleep. I hear the shower running for a while and have to pee so I walk into the bathroom half asleep and find my DH masturbating. Now before I get all the “what’s wrong with you, all men masturbate” comments, let me explain the problem. He wasn’t using any porn he wasn’t looking at anything just masturbating. The problem is we have been ttcing for almost 2 years and I’m on fertility medicine and in my fertile window. He is supposed to give me everything he has not the toilet! He can masturbate if I don’t feel like sex or if he doesn’t feel he gets it enough or especially if he is gone for work, but during my fertile week when I offer it to him constantly. When I try really hard to make it sensual and wonderful. I buy new lingerie each month to spice it up. I seduce him and definitely don’t make it feel like work! I don’t push him to have sex more than he wants to, but he knows I’m available anytime he does want that release. When I walked in and saw him and saw his face I felt sick. Sick that he can’t control his desire to get off even for a baby. Makes me wonder how often he has masturbated in past months during this crucial window of time. He tells me all the time how he wants another child, but I’m not sure I believe him anymore. We had sex just 8 hours prior!! If he wanted to get off why didn’t he use me for that purpose this morning. I’m not really looking for advice just venting. I will talk to him when he gets home from work, but I really feel sick about this. It is the lies not the act that bothers me the most.