Have been trying..today was the day!!!

A tiny bit of backstory...We got married in July and have been talking about babies for years before that. We knew we wanted to be married before baby and to be a bit more financially stable. Fast forward to October when we go on our honeymoon. We were walking around Salzburg Austria and I just knew we were preggo. I felt kind of crazy to tell the truth. I finally told my husband and we took a test the next morning. We were pregnant! But three days later we landed in Amsterdam for our last leg of the trip. We walked out of the airport and I felt a bit of cramping and suddenly felt like a ton of wetness on my pants. I went to the nearest toilet (a port o potty) and my heart sank. We lost the baby. I have heard of the pain people experience during miscarraige but it was and still is the worst thing that has ever happened to me. I felt less than, and for a long time.

This morning after being sick with the flu for 3 weeks I had that same crazy feeling I did months ago...we did it! I haven't told my husband yet. I am so afraid that we will lose it. I can't even really be that excited. I am so scared. Anyone out there have any advise on how to get over the fear and be excited for this new baby?