I'm depressed what do I do?

I'm depressed and I know I shouldn't be. But everyone always brings up how it's about the baby so my feelings don't matter. It is about the baby but I'm still very depressed and saddened all the time without the love of my life to wake up to. Sometimes makes me not wanna wake up at all.

My fiance and I are currently living separately due to housing but I can't help but think it's my fault for causing it.

See my fiance's father never liked me. And we were staying in his house. I was incarcerated for something I didn't do, I got out the next day, but his dad thought that since I was gone my fiance would break up with me. When he refused he was kicked out and now he is sleeping on a motel room

floor.

Everyday my heart hurts more because I wonder what life would've been like had I not gone to that family dinner. Or if at the time I felt like giving out a hug and a kiss. Or even if the justice system where I lived was fair.

For context of why I was arrested. I went to a Thanksgiving dinner and got a ride home from my mother's mom. We were dropping off my mother's sisters daughter at her home. She's 8. Now everyone was giving her a hug and kiss and I wasn't feeling good so I opted out with a simple see you later sweetie.

I was then called rude and yelled at. Mind you I don't like to be touched always besides me being pregnant my PTSD just don't allow it at times so I don't. So I said she's 8 I'm not gonna baby her ass and treat her likes she's 1-4. My mother's mom told me to get out. I got my bag and proceed to leave when she pulled my hair. Punched and scratched me. Til I bled. She busted my eye, bruised the bridge of my nose, and bruised and scratched my forehead. I was arrested because her daughter who didn't see the whole thing saidbI hit her first when she had no indication of hits and she was let off.