Life sucks...

I just feel so exhausted. Life is just kicking me while I’m down repeatedly. I try really hard and I do my best to a good person but it just never enough. First my husband goes on deployment to Afghanistan. I deal with it. Finish LPN school. Push through. Then my grandpa has to have a brain tumor removed. Its ok. I deal. I help my grandma through it. Finally my husband comes home. We figure out life again. Buy a house. I start RN school. I get pregnant. Everything seems ok. Then my husband gets diagnosed with multiple sclerosis and I have a missed miscarriage at the same time. I drove my husband to his million appointments, work just under full time, go to school full time, and deal with my miscarriage. Which of course I thought passed naturally but ended up bleeding for 3 weeks and ended up getting a D&C.; My husband had to have a lumbar puncture that didn’t go well and was on bed rest for a week and ended up getting a blood patch to fix it. Then I was driving him to his 5 days of steroid injections which the drive was over an hour each way. This was all in the same month while working nights and going to school. I thought that this was our big thing. We got through it, we still are, but we’ll survive. I push through my husbands depression after this. He even talked of wanting to die. I make him see a psychiatrist and we push through. Then I get pregnant again. Ok we’re back on track. 2018 will be ok. Nope. My grandpa gets worked up for cancer. We find out he has leukemia. Ok. I help them and we will deal with it. It’s hairy cell leukemia. It’s not the worst kind. My grandma tells me she is dealing with everything because she will be getting a great grand baby this year. I went in for a 10wk US and guess what. No heart beat again. Stopped growing at 8wk. Again. Now what? I’m losing steam. I need to push through but I feel empty. I have to work. I’m the money maker right now. I have to finish school. I’m done in June. I have to study for my stupid test for my maternal child nursing class. I have to study about other women giving birth. I just can’t my heart hurts. I’m trying to keep it together but it’s just so hard. Everything just has to be a constant struggle. Money. Health. Family. School. Everything. Sorry for the long story. I just needed to rant.