Just a sad rant

I'm getting to that point in my life where I'm living on my own, in a serious relationship with a man I'm in love with, done with college, have a good job, and starting to have baby fever. I'm so extremely happy and excited for my future with him, and so excited to get engaged and be married and have his children.. but like I know at the same time I'll be sad during those events cause I have no friends that are girls to share these experiences with. I have no girls to be my bridesmaids, no girls for a baby shower, no girls to gush to about my engagement or new baby.. No one. I've tried to make friends that were girls but for some reason I can just never get along with anyone. I've had a lot of friends in the past hurt me very baddly and stab me in the back, so now I'm just too weary of them. I have a ton of guy friends but it's just not the same. I also suffer from social anxiety so it is so hard for me to even be able to talk. I'm just sad :( My boyfriend is my absolute bestfriend and love of my life, and I am so greatful to have him in my life, but I just wish I had some girls to share these things with too :( sorry for the rant, just felt like I should get it off my chest.