Overwhelmed

Is it normal that this made me cry all morning? I should be getting induced tomorrow via gel if I'm found favorable. If not it's 3 more days of waiting and up to 6 more days before I see my boy after that. I'm a bariatric patient and I have really low blood pressure and iron which means I pass out often. I'm scared even though I know I shouldn't be. Everyone keeps telling me to relax but it's the most frustrating thing to hear I've just stopped responding. I don't mean to be bitter it's just so emotionally overwhelming!