How am I ever supposed to know what the right decision is? Neither feels right. Neither will be easy. How do I ever come up with a decision I know is the right one before it’s too late. Half the time I feel excited but the other half I know it’s just too much and I won’t be able to provide for another child. Do I have an abortion so the child I do have is given everything she needs and more, or do I have this second child and they both have to see us struggle and go without