Help..

I used to be best friends with this really amazing guy.

Every day we would text, sit next to each other in class, and hang out. I had strong feelings for him, and I thought he had he same for me.

Around April last year we were talking via text message and he said something to me that kind of hurt, but it wasn’t a big deal at all. I over reacted, blocked him from all social media, then stopped talking to him.

I didn’t want our friendship to end, but it did.

Shortly after that my friend started hanging out with him more, just to make me jealous, then he asked her out, but she said no (we aren’t friends anymore thank god). This broke me, because she was the first person he had ever asked out, and I was hoping that it would be me.

It also meant that he isn’t a shy person, meaning if he liked me, than he would have asked me out.

He is a really amazing, caring, kind and funny person, and the sort of person that you want to spend the rest of your life with.

He is perfect in every way possible, but I feel like he and I will never be friends again.

Every now and then we end up look at each other at the same time, its really awkward but at the same, it’s really nice. When this happens, I smile to him, but he never smiles but. He just kind of looks at me so I just look away.

I have asked so many people about this, my family, my closest and most trustworthy friends. I even had to get a physiatrist to talk to for a semester but none of anyones suggestions help.

The tell me to go up to him and talk to him, but that is physically impossible for me to do because I just can’t. Everyone tells me that I should be able to because it can’t get any worse, but it can.

What if I try apologise but he doesn’t forgive me.

What if I go up to him but he tells me to go away.

What if I try to talk to him but he tells me that he doesn’t want to be friends with me again.

I haven’t posted on so many sites, asked so many close friends, but nothing helps.

Please suggest anything at all, I miss him so much. 😥