my heart hurts .

so, my mom knows I have a baby and everything and she's fine with it. she finds her very cute and she's happy and nothing changed how she feels about me, she has nothing against me from it. so basically nothing bad happened between me and my mom after she found out about my baby.

but then my grandma (whom she lives with) is all pissy about it because somehow it affects her, even though I barely ask her for jack and I'm not even REMOTELY the type to mooch off people for money or things I need. she's being immature and won't accept it, she hasn't spoken to me or anything. she sent in $200 though Western Union for my boyfriend, meanwhile I can go screw myself if I need anything. I'm not saying anything about how he gets money and I don't, it's just that she's okay with him about it before she's okay with me.

she refuses to let me into the house, she said I can't come home with a baby. I've been staying at my boyfriend's since the day I was discharged which was this past Friday (3/2). it really hurts to not be able to go back home and see my mom just because of my grandma's immaturity and refusal to accept it. "I love you no matter what you do" my ass. if that were true she wouldn't kick me out of the fucking house.

i really miss seeing my mom every day. i love her so so so much and being away from her hurts me badly, and I feel happy asf around her. she's everything to me. I want to arrange a day to see my mom and just hang out with her and my baby sister and my daughter, and see my pets, but it's difficult when i have a grandma that just refuses to directly talk to me (she had my mom talk for her. 🙄) or let me back home because y'know, I apparently don't deserve to come back with a baby...lmao I'm actually crying a bit now. it really hurts.