Long: to anyone who is scared or has had fears

Let me start off by saying that no labor decisions were made until I was 41 weeks and a day. It wasn't exactly my decision but that's the way the cookie crumbles LOL. I am a FTM. i have had a previous missed miscarriage, calcium spot in his heart, echogenic bowel, labor symptoms for 33 weeks, and no progression in my actual body for labor. Before I was sent to the hospital to be induced, I had been to the hospital four separate times. The first time was due to extreme back spasms and violent contractions in December. the second was for more contractions and that was later on in my third trimester. The third time I thought my water broke and the fourth time I had the 5-1 1 contractions but my body wasn't progressing from them. When i was there the last time, they mentioned induction or a possible C-section because I was already overdue. I declined because I wanted to speak to my doctor, but my doctor rescheduled my appointment that was supposed to happen the next day. So instead of going to my doctor that week, I decided to wait until 41 weeks because he told me he wouldnt induce me until I was 42 anyway. deep down i felt so much anxiety and fear...i should have pushed my Dr and family more. TRUST YOUR INSTINCT!!!! DO NOT SHRUG OFF A CONCERN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SEEMS!!! March 6th I went in for my 41 week and a day appointment. I was mentally prepared to tell my doctor that I needed to be induced because I was physically emotionally and mentally at my limit for being pregnant. Surprisingly I didn't even have to mention it because my doctor wanted to induce me ASAP. Upon arriving at my appointment I was checked to make sure my water didn't break because I was leaking and I was checked to see if I had progressed. Surprisingly I was still barely dilated barely effaced and still high up. My belly went from measuring ahead to now measuring at 37 weeks. Concerned, my doctor set me up for an ultrasound to check on how the baby was doing since we hadn't checked since October. He was measuring good and everything seemed fine except he had an echogenic bowel. that enchogenic bowel could be a variety of things. Anything from cystic fibrosis to Down syndrome to literally nothing. So my doctor said to induce me at 6:30 that night. I buried myself in distractions at home. Picked up the house, did my last laundry load, organized the bedroom, really anything to keep my mind off the nerves. My husband came home from work, we packed a snack bag, and we rolled out to pick up his mother (she was home alone and really wanted to go too). Everything went smoothly from check in but since I was contracting since 33 weeks and my contractions were 3 min apart, they started me on pitocin. The next morning, they upped my pitocin dose and we scheduled my epidural for 830am. Epidural went in decent despite it feeling and looking like a sword went in me. Catheter went in and suddenly my heart and blood pressure dropped. My face went blue and my body contracted for 10 min, loosing babies heart for 8. All the nurses and Drs from a scheduled c section for another mom were suddenly in my room. They put me on oxygen, flipped me in all sorts of positions, and finally got babies heart rate back. They immediately rushed me into the OR with my terrified husband in tow. I was violently shaking as they prepped me and they began the c section as soon as my Dr was ready. I had two Drs give me surgery, the umbilical cord was 2 feet long and poor bub was wrapped completely in it. I lost a lot of blood and they had to manually push him out but as soon as my husband and I heard that sweet little cry, we sobbed. Despite all the odds thrown at him, he came out perfectly healthy and has passed every test with flying colors. he latched perfectly and is,actively breastfeeding. To any worried mom out there, you can do it and have faith that your body, your Dr, and your baby won't fail you. YOU can do it!!!