Sex as a Sexual Assault Survivor (Help?)

Last night things were getting heat with my partner and I. He was teasing me (as you do) and he didn’t have a condom on. As he was about to enter me i said no (not to the sex, just the unprotected part) . He entered me anyway and then shortly pulled out and put a condom on and kept going, he asked if everything was okay and at that point it was. Afterwards, i was feeling off and he knew straight away - he asked what was wrong and i told him; turns out he didn’t hear me, and he felt so terrible that he literally left the room because he didn’t feel like he deserved to be around me. He’s apologised every chance he’s gotten and even this morning when he left for work he apologised again. I honestly believe that he didn’t hear me, because he feels so horrible.

However this is my problem- I’m a survivor of sexual assault and last night it really just brought back flash backs and this morning I’m really feeling it.. I’m so incredibly anxious and I just want to cry.. Someone with advice or just a way to make me feel better would be fantastic???