Im sad :,( i need encouragement i feel so sad.

I just want this to be my month so so much. But im sad because im getting cramping im 8dpo currently and i think i might be out this month. Its really going to break me mentally if i dont get my positive this month. I truly feel pain deep in my heart to the point i cry almost everyday. Peopl say just stop trying and itll happen but ita hard to follow that when being a mother is your biggest dream in life...... im so so sad i almost feel numb because of how many negatives ive gotten. I also have been praying everyday i hope god answers my prayer this month... AF not welcome april 4th...