So when I was younger, I dealt with anxiety and depression. I had an alcoholic father who was in and out of my life, bullied at school, terrible 3 year relationship which was emotionally and sometimes physically abusive. I had been on lexapro but it didn’t help so I did nothing else and just coped. I met my husband in 2012. He is literally perfect. We welcomed our son in 2016. After that, the depression and anxiety hit full force again. I’m 16 months postpartum and still cannot shake this. I don’t know what to do. Staying busy helps sometimes, but let’s be for real. You can’t stay busy 24/7. I’m not sure what else to do from here. I need and want to be a better mother and wife. But days like today make everything hard. My chest is heavy, heart is pounding, I’m exhausted and just can’t escape these thoughts today..