Drained

I feel tired and I don’t even know why, the things I looked forward to I no longer look forward to. My motivation for things are so little. I just hate it because i cant even wake up happy. I just want one day to feel like I’m actually living. I have a loving boyfriend but even he can’t make me fully happy. I know I could only find happiness from within me but I don’t think there’s any. I feel empty and I want to give up on my life. I just want the pain to stop. I want it all to just end. I want to be happy or nothing at all.