I don't know what to do anymore

everything has been terrible for me, I just been so depressed lately and I can't even find a job!!! my partner now wants me to pack my shit up and leave and to get a job... this morning I got him up at 4am for work and everything and he was yelling at me... but then snuggled me... yelled at me again... then it was time to leave I tried to get a hug from him like I do everyday and he tried to leave (keep in mind he was going to be 30 min early still) and I tried to shut the door so I could get my hug and say bye and everything... then I just got mad cause he yelled at me that I tried closing the door on him.. he then came at me and push me up our stairs... me beinh frustrated i threw a shoe near the car (not at him or the car though) he is always making me seem like the bad guy cause I have fucked up many times the last 4 years but he has too... he hasn't even been gone an hour and I have been none stop crying.. I ended up blocking him after he texted me to pack up and leave.. I think I a going to talk to his dad and tell.him everything that has been going on... we never comfimed a break up or anything either. if I leave I will be on the streets with no car or money. he just wants me to leave cause I don't have a job EDIT: IT IS MY PLACE NOT HIS, I OWN IT, EVERYTHING IS UNDER MY NAME I DO NOT THINK I WAS (sorry just noticed caps) being kid about cause he was the one who pushed me... I did call his dad but apparently that was kidish to do but whatever he was glad I called cause he cares about me he is going to talk to my partner about it when he is home from work. I do have some money from a savings and credit cards but I still would not have anywhere to go. I don't wanna leave either cause I put 4 nearly 5 years into this relationship. I was gonna see if he wanted to do consoling or something and just simply talk about what has happened recently. ALSO I do have a car. it's my car under my name. but he needs it more then me. we share a vehicle. ALSOOO another reason I talked to his dad is cause WE ARE MARRIED UGH