TTC is not so fun

So we have been TTC for 3 years next month and it feels like forever. I used to be at the point where I’m just depressed every time I get close to AF. I would put myself down all the time and get really sad. I’m getting a little better at that. Trying not to let it effect me so much. Was talking to hubby last night and he said he was really frustrated and angry that we don’t have a baby yet. He’s totally free to express how he feels but for some reason it hit me really hard. I felt horrible again. Hearing him say it was almost worse then me doing it to myself. Probably not fair but its how I felt. I think since it’s now effects both of us so much it’s time to take a break. Seems we need to just concentrate on other things right now.