2 Looooong cycles 😫

I’m about ready to give up here. DH and I have been trying for four months. I know that’s not a long time, and I know I have no right to complain. Our lives have been a little stressful, but I thought I was handling it just fine. I came off of birth control in October, and my body seemed weird for a little while. But now my last two cycles have been 41-43 days long, and my period shows up mostly dark red/brown for four days and quits. Am I even ovulating at this point?! My back has also broken out a ton, which is a place I’ve never had acne issues before. My “first day cramps” feel the same when they show up, and my breasts are sore for a few days ahead of time. I’m just so tired of failing to interpret the signs. It seems like everyone is getting their babies, and my body has already given up...

sorry y’all. I know I have no right to complain, but we haven’t told many people that we’re TTC, so I can’t really throw a pity party anywhere else 🎉 🎈 😥