Today I cried

Today I cried when someone wished me happy mother's day. I lost my baby 3 months ago. I was 16 weeks along. I went for my regular check up. They put the heart beat Doppler on my stomach and she couldn't find the heart beat. I said that something was wrong. She said I don't think so the baby was really low. She said let go get a ultra sound. So we went into the next room for the ultra sound. The baby didn't have a heart beat. I was so broken. It was the 3 baby we lost. I had to be put into the hospital the next morning to have our son. He arrived at 11:05 p.m. on February 13 and then at 12:05 a.m. on February 14, 2018 I had to have a emergency DNC. I have always want children from the time that I was a teenager. I always thought that I would get married and have children. I am now. 35 with no children. I don't know. what else to do.