Trying for #3, emotional wreck

So, DH and I have been talking about trying for #3 for a couple of months and last Wednesday I had my Mirena removed. Our plan was I would work until I delivered and not go back to work and just take care of our kids. Our oldest is 9 boy and #2 is 6 girl. Yes yes I know, why would I start over well probably bc of this app lol!! Anyways, Friday I got layed off. Ok no big deal, what we planned just started early.

I have been on Effexor for about a year now and I stopped today (I know I can't take it while pregnant) I ran out so just didn't get script filled. I have been totally fine today until I come home and evidently the beast was out!! I have older siblings and we are so close even with in laws. My brother called and asked if I could pick up one of his kid early from school, she's not feeling well allergies are up. Yes of course we all do for each other. So I do and just keep her with me. She's 14. So I had to pick up my mom from doc appt and take her home well I talk to him on the way to my moms and he said he was almost home so I text are you going to pick kids up. I just get a solid no. Ok whatever I go and pick our kids up from his grandmother's where they get off the bus, I pass the house and I see his car ok whatever he might be asleep getting sleep. Taking my niece home i have to pass the house again so I stop to get my charger and he is omg in best mode just crabby. So after dropping niece off I get home get kids supper baths and bed. He sit on the couch and fussed at our 9 year about whatever he could find. Bedtime 9yr old hugs me and heads to bed and he tells him to come back and give him loves 'Im the reason you eat' instant pissed off. Like why would anyone say anything like that to a kid and it was a jab at me!! Seriously dude????? This is my 2nd not working for over 6 years and that's what you say?????? +I did also have a interview today. We live in a seriously one red light town so I went to not burn Bridges. It actually went really well. ) So after kids go to bed we talk a little and I tell him he was being a jerk but he didn't see it of course and I ask like do you want me to take the job if it is offered and very pissy he says 'just do what makes sense, if the pay is good don't turn it down!" It ended with me crying, pissed bc I cried and now laying in bed typing this book. Like WTF does he want from me?? He says he wants a baby and seriously he is the one who started the let's have another one crap but now it's like he is having second thoughts. Having the Mirena taken out did make me start but he hasn't touched me since we decided I wouldn't have the mirena replaced. I just don't get it. Right now my plan is to look for another job bc I'll be damned if ANYONE will act like I don't contribute. Really I just needed to vent and honestly it might not make sense right now. But I feel better so thanks!!💝