Very disappointed with arrival of AF

We have been trying for over a year. Weirdly this month I feel super depressed about getting my period. Usually, I brush it off and look forward to next month, but not this time.

I am thinking about giving up. ☹️ If the truth is told the repetitive two-week wait to get this disappointment is heartbreaking. I’m trying to put on a brave face for my partner and myself, but the sadness seeps out. I read these fantastic stories of people attempting sperm friendly lubes and taking fertility supplements and getting bfp. Nothing has worked, I didn’t think it would be this hard at 27. Genuinely feel like I’m letting my partner down. I have a feeling it is me that is the problem. My doctor refuses to explore anything until we’ve been trying for two years. 😞😔

Open to coping methods or referrals. I don’t even know where to start.