Emotionally Wreaked

In October I’m lost my daughter. This was the second time in my life being pregnant. My son passed due to a car accident at 7 months. For a long time I was so afraid to try again. This time around I was scared but so very happy. At 19weeks my water broke. At 23 weeks my grandfather died. At 24 weeks I was admitted to the hospital. Gestational diabetes’s, my baby lungs not developing correctly and she didn’t weight enough. But my little angel was strong. He weight improved and my diabetes got better. She was doing better my doctors agreed that she had a real chance. October 28 2017 @ 5:55am Marley Murphy was born but @ 6:49am she passed away. Her little lung hardened and she wasn’t strong enough to breathe on her own. It was the hardest fight I’ve had in my life now I feel so empty. I was ready to give my world to her now she is gone and so is my soul. Every day I cry and cry and cry. To make things worst my ex told me I wasn’t a real woman because I can produce live children and no man would ever want me. Now I feel like I just want to die so I can feel this pain anymore