I don’t love my boyfriend anymore.

I don’t look forward to him coming home from work, I don’t enjoy his company and my “I love you”s feel forced and more of a habit. We have been together 3 1/2 years, living together for 3 months. He’s my first relationship, and I just think we have out grown one another. We are so different, and we want to lead completely different lives. I’m money conscious, level headed and I like my environment to be clean and tidy. He’s immature, he spends £100’s on the Xbox a month and I came back today after not being at the flat all weekend and it is trashed! No clothes washing done, no washing up done, rubbish and dirty plates everywhere. But I’m scared of leaving. I know it will hurt. He’s a part of my life and has been for so long. Being without him is going to feel alien.