Loosing virginity?

Lea

I am a virgin and i dont want to scream in pain while having my first sex so I tried to use a cucumber as a vibrator and tested out the pain AND IT HURTED SO FUCKING BAD! rather than that what worried me most was no matter how hard i pushed it inside me it just didn’t make it through and i don’t get why!!! btw i was wet as hell lmao:))