I want that positive test so badly and today, when in was sitting outside I realized, whose going to do my precious bundle of joy while I'm gone and at work? My partner is great but we both have to work. My engineering company doesn't have an onsite daycare or anything radicle like that.. How am I supposed to drop my child off from 830-530 at a daycare and be comfortable with it?? Sure I have family that can help some days but maybe this want for a baby is selfish of me?? I want to be there for my baby and there's no way family members can help 40 hours m-f..  Maybe I'm crazy because this just hit me now but it's a sad feeling realizing your career needs to continue to grow at the same time you're trying so hardly to grow your family. What do you ladies think?