NEED 1ST DILDO

Hey ladies! So I’m a 19 yr virgin with a banging hot boyfriend who is not a Virgin. I’m saving myself for multiple reasons, one because I know I get SUPER attached and if I had sex with my SO he better be the one to marry me cause ain’t no one else. (It just seems to mean more to me than most people.)

I want to share my body with one person only! HOWEVER I am super into my sexuality and I love masturbation and im looking into getting my first dildo! I want something realistic, fleshy, suction cup and medium size maybe. Or maybe something my boyfriend can use on me. I’m not completely sure but I’d love suggestions! I’ve never really had anything shoved up there, I don’t even use tampons so I need advice! My boyfriend and I eat each other out too so I know what my body likes, I’m not a prude, but I just know I don’t want to cross that intercourse line yet. I just want to explore my sexuality!