I hate him

I hate him so much. But my inner still have feeling. He says mean things, make me cry very often, he can be mad for little things that isnt really important. I told him so many time what he have to do to keep me. Show me some respect. When he is calm he understand it, but when the anger comes, he forget everything, and treat me like shit, sometimes for no reason. Im weak, because I cant even find the courage to leave him.