Anyone can pinpoint a possible disorder

So I was wondering if anyone knows if this is a certain dosorder I am seeing a therapist. So I'm married me and my husband use to fight a lot where I would get physical and hit him or kick him and not realize my actions till after I did it. I would scream at the top of my lungs at him about something I'm mad about him doing. If he tried to go for a walk to calm down id try to stand in front of the door so he couldnt leave if he left I would go running for him screaming and crying down the road I didn't like to work because I didn't know what he'd be doing while I was there so I never worked. I hated if he wanted to drink and smoke with his buddies at work. And I basically yelled at him til he says he won't do it. If he tried to leave me to calm down I would sit on his car or bang on his windows so he couldn't leave. I never could keep a relationship because I was like this. A lot of rage and viewed myself horribly. We are a lot better now though.

You want to bash me for my horrible childish behavior go ahead I don't care I know I was stupid but I am working on it. Or maybe its just psychotic bitch disorder.