I can’t get over it

I’m in high school, and when I came to the school I’m at I didn’t know anyone, at all. After a few months I met this guy, we’ll call him Q. Q was the first boy I’d ever met that really gave me butterfly’s. He and I grew close and shared everything with each other. He even took my first kiss. But then he got a girlfriend, who was a friend of ours, and then acts like I don’t exist anymore. And I want it back, I want him back. This happened in the span of freshmen year and made my sophomore year hell. He was the first person I’ve met to tell me I’m beautiful and he even told me he loved me. I took it really hard, and became depressed and remained depressed throughout the year.

I’m now a junior, and I’m still not over what he did. It hurt so badly to be told by him that he didn’t love me and he never thought of us as more than friends. It felt like someone had ripped my chest open and taken out my heart.

I have good days and bad days. I have to see his girlfriend around school, who I also used to be friends with, and she doesn’t acknowledge my existence. I know no one will read this but if you do, listen to Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri. That’s how I feel all the time. I’m so pathetic for it. When will I be over this? Can anyone help me? Why am I like this? I just want to be happy.