Idk what just happened or what to do?

So my boyfriend has been mad at me all day and hasn’t even kissed me once today. So I put the baby down for bed early and went to bed early because we’ve tried talking multiple times about why we are upset and it has only made us more upset. I figured if I go to bed then wake up in the morning I’ll be refreshed and ready to talk some more.

So I went to bed and a couple hours later he comes in our room and starts feeling and touching up on me so I was like maybe this is his way of apologizing. So we get to doing the deed and I asked him when it started getting really heated to “make love to me” (which usually means kiss me and do me like you mean it). He said no just fuck me...I said no make love to me and he shoved my face in the bed and said I said no just fuck me. I told him no and that I wasn’t feeling it anymore and he said I don’t care I’m gonna fuck you I know you want this dick. I then said no again but he wouldn’t let me get up and wouldn’t stop. So I shut down and just laid there frozen and he got mad I wasn’t moaning because it didn’t feel right to me anymore and he got really forceful and said I better start making some sound or he’s gonna get rougher and I started crying and he finished in me. Then didn’t know why I was upset and crying and that whole time he never not once kissed me.

What just happened to me? I feel so wrong and like he used me at my most vulnerable time. I just don’t know what to do or how to feel.