I sometimes I wish I wasnt..

Sometimes I wish I wasnt pregnant by or married to this man. He isn't pulling his weight financially and won't get a man's job. He has this idea that his clothing line will make it but I don't feel he is serious enough or focused to make it work. He has started other things and never finishes them. I don't like his family first of all because of the deliberate disrespect I've received. I often wish I had snapped out of it a long time ago before I made the decision to continue. I don't get taken out on dates to keep the romance up, everything is split down the middle as if were bf/gf even then before marriage it was this way. What the hell was I thinking