BIG UPDATE INSIDE!! Had an affair & I might be pregnant!

So I come from a marriage full of infidelity on my husbands side; too many cheating encounters to count with a lot of broken trust and heartbreak from him. Well aware of the whole “two wrongs don’t make a right” thing when it comes to doing the same as my partner but I was so sick and tired of feeling unwanted and not desired, I slept with someone else. Someone I know. No protection. Pulled out but yes; I’m well aware that (unaware of) precum can cause pregnancy in women. Especially women 6 months postpartum of a recent pregnancy who’s unable to use birth control.

Was it amazing? Yes. The sex was out of this world. Do I regret not using a condom? We’ll find out. Given I’m supposed to test on Monday and I’m starting to cramp a tiny bit and I have what feels to be a belly ache and seemingly a bit sensitive breasts. Resembling the beginning of my previous pregnancy.

But on the upside of all for this! We’re getting a divorce. He admitted it was all him not me. I felt a tiny bit of guilt for doing what I wanted to feel good for once and he didn’t give a damn. Which shows me just where he is with me and our marriage. The process for divorce will be starting soon. Wanted to add that it is happening.

I’m retesting in Monday which will mark 2 weeks since sex with him. But this morning (9/29) within 4 minutes this was the result. Faint but there. This blows. If it’s darker Monday I’m being “that girl” that sends him a beautiful snap of a pregnancy test announcing his child and that I need help with my options.

(Yes I used my wedding ring; only thing I had near me to grab the attention to the test)

Side note for those anxiously waiting for an update; the big update in regards to the pregnancy test will be tomorrow morning. The test above was from the other day in the AM. Praying there is no line progression in the morning so my big possible pregnancy update can be a big fat negative. I’m anxious too. Trust me.

The guy hasn’t spoken to me in about 2 weeks. He was one big asshole afterwards. But you can bet your ass if I’m pregnant and he doesn’t respond, the person he begged me not to speak to (ex girlfriend and roommate) will be getting a message to help get in contact with him if I am.

So this mornings test was a little darker but not by much. I did test with another stick and it was very faint to not even there. So I’m just going to request a blood test to see for sure rather than play the game of; is this faulty or is this real with these damn pregnancy tests.

But bloods will most likely be back by Wednesday - Thursday if I’m able to go today so this’ll be a super duper fun wait 🤦🏼‍♀️ thanks for tagging along with this fuckery and the gif responses are the best❤️

So it’s Monday and I’m here at Quest getting my blood work done to check for the hormone. If not present I’ll be thanking God and not being stupid again. Spoke to the guy. We’re both 22. He called me. And we’ve been talking back and forth. He said when he was younger he had testicular cancer and had a vasectomy. Not sure how true. We know some men and even women can lie about ANYTHING! well that would be the one time I slept with my soon to be ex husband, makes him the guy who possibly impregnated me.

Either way given how much my soon to be ex treats me like shit and what have you, this guy who I slept with offered to pay for the abortion. Yes I know this is a huge controversial subject. But I’m in no place to have a second baby. Especially not with someone who doesn’t want to be a father to his first.

Small quick update as we all anxiously wait for the blood test results. I spoke with my soon to be ex about this possible pregnancy. I’d like to add that I tend to miscarry. I’ve had multiple chemical miscarriages before 5 weeks and one horrible missed miscarriage before the conception and successful pregnancy of our rainbow baby born this year. So we know the chances of loss are high for me.

Well talking I told him the price range for termination. The timeframe is have and the rise ins cost of past the timeframe of the clinic which my god surprised me! I felt so sad hearing that they terminate past 14 weeks 😭 anyways, he informed me that he wants to make us work and have me go through with the pregnancy if it’s confirmed and viable. Why? So he can ignore that baby to? I know 100% divorce is happening. I can’t allow myself to continue day by day getting stressed and hurt by him, especially in front of our daughter. It’s not happening.

He’s so controlling and narcissistic it’s sickening. Again; touchy controversial subject. If I felt I could successfully carry to term and bless a family through adoption I would, but I’d be too high risk and wouldn’t be able to work and that’s not fair to my daughter since I’m trying to save up to move us out❤️

I’ve also spent the whole day going back and forth through text and phone calls with the other guy I slept with. Although he’s been a huge asshole who said all the right things that my husband never said to me or gave me whatever, and he hooked up with me with no talking afterwards, he’s been very sweet and caring today and I’m hoping he won’t disappear again because he’s helped me through today and keep me calm.

But I’ll have results Wednesday🤞🏻 at this time I don’t have much more to update with aside from how my husband is trying to mind fuck me into thinking we can make our marriage work; yet still talk to other women and put me down. Can’t wait to start the divorce process y’all.

I mentioned above how I’m prone to chemical miscarriages and how I’ve had one too many already. Well my faint positives were true but I started spotting this morning, went in for my previously scheduled Gyno appointment which they tested my pee and that was negative. So unless my body is playing hella mean tricks on me right now with god forbid positive blood results; IM NOT PREGNANT🙌🏻🙌🏻

Now if y’all will excuse me and my happy dancing, the other guy invited me to go ride in his race car and go fast to celebrate😂 and FYI, this guy is a hard 10 that if sex is offered I’m definitely not declining 😏