So loss is following me

Okay so I'm just getting pissed off now. 3 days ago my family experienced a horrible horrific tragic loss of one of our own. A child almost 5 years old my cousins oldest son got killed by being run over by a bush hog and tractor. Now me being in the mental state that I am over other things... Things just don't add up to me.He had 2 baby's on that tractor with him. For one .. it's a unspoken common sense rule that you don't but a baby on a tractor with a blade behind it... Period. I get it... They want to ride.. I think all us county grown folks have done it a time or two... But damn it... 2 baby's on a tractor that you have to drive with a bush hog .... Why.... I'm just so angry... Then come to find out as the mom and dad are trying to keep their baby alive... Ems is just standing there waiting to pronounce the baby dead. Like you fucking idiots... Why wouldn't you do what your trained to do. Take that baby away from his emotionally frantic parents and do what they are trained to do. Assess and establish and remove and transport. No matter what if that baby was alive and screaming like they say he was they what in the fuck we're the email doing? I'm just beyond belief and I know with me having a 4 year old my self if anything like this happened there would be no way in ever loving holy hell that I would just let him lay there and die. No matter how severe and damaged. I have some medical training and I have a keen sense for trauma. Actually looking at going into the field indefinitely. So my mind can not wrap around the process of the way things happened and the reasons behind what people did in this situation. Now I know I'm sounding harsh and mean and hateful. That's because I don't come with these things at all. I'm already a mad human being for my mother passing 2 weeks ago and now this. My critical thinking skills and my abailuty to shut shit off is hindered at this point because I'm so mad. I had to get this out and people are gonna say mean things about how I'm being so critical and crude. But damn it... Life is on top of me and people around me right now