I give up

I will try to make this as short as I can. I’m 15 and my family is very religious. In around January I met a boy on instagram and he told me how much he loves me and how we will have a future together and i felt so loved. I never felt loved before. My family hate me, they’re abusive towards me, always mock me, etc. In march i met him and we had sex because I felt that he really did love me (btw he left me after sex just to use me for it). My mum found out by looking through my text messages and that was the worst moments of my life. I got beat up every minute of every day I had bruises all over my body. My mum would say and still to this day say things such as I’m a whore, nobody will marry me because I’m not a virgin, she hopes I get raped and killed in the streets, I’ll grow up to be a prostitute, she judges me because the boy i had sex with was black and says things like black people are drug addicts, thieves and every time we see a black man when i’m with her she will say “oh he’s black go have sex with him” a nd even yesterday she told me that she hopes i get a husband who beats me up everyday then stopped and said you won’t get one anyway because nobody loves you. She then tried to do FGM on me to sew it up so i become a virgin again. I ended up telling me school my mum was planning to do this to me. And she went to court and she still goes. I’m scared to say to social services that she still beats me and says these things to me otherwise they will take my baby brother away and i can’t lie, she treats him very good very better than me and he’s 2. I love my mum she just hates me and she says and does the worst things to me. Everyday gets worse and i’m so suicidal and I feel like just ending it all i’m so alone i have nobody i dontknow who to talk to i’m so lonely is just so alone in my life and i wish i had someone to talk to and someone who would just love me and take care of me and be by my side becayse i thought i had that once but he just used me and made my life harder and he doesn’t even know. In school i’m in my last year doing my exams to go to college but there’s a group of girls who always make fun of me too and when i tell my school they do it even lore and one of them even came to me and punched me and started a fight and i was the one who got excluded. I hate being at school but I also hate being at home i’m not safe anywhere and i just want to either die or run away but i have nowhere togo. i don’t know what to do if i run away where shall i go? i have no friends and no family who care about me. I regret what i did with that boy every minute of every day but most of all i regret being alive.