Karma got me

Well, I deserve it. I lost him before I had the chance to be with him. I’m on the verge of relapsing on self-harm and maybe a step further. I feel absolutely horrible.

This guy I’m interested in is in the Marines, stationed in Hawaii. Yesterday he told me he’s not romantically interested in me and he even deleted a picture of us in Hawaii when I came to visit him in March. I’m serious, I want to harm myself! I want to take a lighter and burn it against my skin, or take a pair of scissors and put the blades up to it.