Am I wanting to end it for wrong reasons

Update:

I told him I didn’t want this anymore. I told him how alone I felt.

He offered to sell the Xbox or for me to hide it. I denied his request. I do feel that it shouldn’t of taken this long for him to see how abandoned I feel, especially since this has been a talk numerous times. If we were a priority this wouldn’t have been an issue and that’s been the problem all along. If it’s not the game then it’s hunting or something else. And I’m stuck with out a social life being a parent to our son. Which I absolutely love being a mother. It’s seriously the only thing that keeps me going. I know he loves me, but actions speak a lot louder than words. Had he understood the first couple times when I’m breaking down in front of him because I’m begging him to just spend some time with us I wouldn’t be at this point.

What hurts the most is splitting up this family our son is so use to. I hate that he’s going to grow up with out his mom and dad in a relationship after knowing it for his whole life. I told him I’m staying until December, the birth of our daughter. As for I am way to pregnant to move my stuff out.

If he really wants us to work, he has some time to prove it to me. But I’m so tired of hurting when I know there is someone else out there who won’t ever make me question my importance. I’ve felt like this my whole life where I feel completely alone, this is why it’s so hard for me to want to stay.

Let me start off by saying that I do love him. I’ve spent the last 3 1/2 years with him. (This is gonna be long)

Last night I decided it was the last straw. I have been begging him for weeks to get off his game and actually spend time with me. If it’s not the Xbox it’s hunting. I get it, he’s 20 years old. Maybe it’s a stress relief but everyday after work he comes home and locks himself in a bedroom and plays that game until he decides he’s ready for bed. He maybe socializes with me and his son for about 30 min before going in that room and putting his headset on to play with his friends and ignore me the rest of the night. Or get snippy because I want to spend time with him.

I’m 7 months almost 8 months pregnant and sometime I need him. And he hasn’t been there for me when I needed. I can’t talk to him about things I’m excited about or if I’m trying to decide wether to go ahead and get a degree or stick with administrative certification I will have. I get that we have different priorities but I want a partner in this relationship and he hasn’t been one.

I don’t know where it all went wrong. Things were going great, we were happy. At least I thought.

I’m a STAHM so when he comes home I want to talk to him, I want to spend time with him. This isn’t the first time I’ve had this problem I’ve talked to him about it over and over again. And he’s not taking it seriously, so I’m at the point where I see no reason to continue a relationship where me and his son are no longer his priority. Clearly we cant make him happy like the game can