Relocation depression? I just need someone to vent to....

Long post.. bare with me! I could use a friend...

Hi everyone. So my husband, myself, and our 2 year old daughter relocated to North Carolina from MI this past June. At first I was really excited about living near the mountains and having some distance.... but now that it kicked in I won’t be home to trick or treat with my nephews and sister, or have thanksgiving with family or anyone.... even Christmas Day it will be just us. We can’t afford to go home a lot. My husband is very strict with the budget and planning for our daughters college and our retirement...

I have a large family and was very accustomed to always being around them, having them to babysit, I was best friends with my sister, and my daughter adores her young boys... who are like my kids (I was their nanny for years).

Anyways, I’m getting depressed... I have cried for 3 weeks straight every night and sometimes during the day. I don’t tell or show my husband because he does NoT get it. He has a hard time sympathizing because in his family they all do their own thing and aren’t super close (which is totally fine- everyone is different!) he would just tell me I just need to make a friend. (Which granted... I probably do- but I get a lot of social anxiety and I’m super introverted- he is the opposite)

My anxiety levels are up and I just feel numb. Like what’s the point? I feel that my life will always revolve around his job and what he thinks is best for the family and I’m too quiet and anxious to speak up. He’s talking about moving again in a year or two for a new position and then only stay in that place for a couple years and then who know what... I came here because i felt he would resent me and not be happy if we didn’t... so I convinced myself it was a great idea and that I would be fine without my family. I thought... maybe I would expand and grow?!

And He is thriving here, he’s doing great at work and has these huge goals of moving up and is making friends at the gym... If I were to tell him I didn’t want to move all around and wanted to move somewhere closer to Michigan and set roots he would be devastated... Like he would first laugh, and somehow convince me I’m wrong.

I guess what i need to know is how do I approach him?

Why am I always so afraid to speak my mind?!

I am always so quick to be persuaded and I end up just sounding confusing and contradicting to the people I love!

Idk how to feel...except numb.. because feeling numb is easy...

Anyone else experience relocation depression? How did you cope?