PPD Relapse

So basically I thought I was out of the woods because I was doing so well for a while and my baby was about to turn one and I really didn’t want to be on SSRI’s for over a year. My PPD was very bad in the beginning, I remember the first 6 weeks being total hell but by the time she was 5 months I was feeling like myself again. I even started working again part time. So about 3 months ago I tapered down.

However, last week I got bad pms which basically turned into severe PMDD and I am taking 50 mg Zoloft again. My hormones I feel are still not how they were before birth. It’s just frustrating because I’m a little upset with myself for being stubborn about not wanting to take SSRI and for a relapse to happen but now I’m also scared my hormones won’t ever bounce back.

I was also taking the mini pill for about 4 months which might have been helping because of the progesterone or maybe made it worse? I’m not sure so I stopped taking it because I heard it could increase PPD symptoms which maybe my body is also withdrawing from the pill. Any insight and advice would be so much appreciated thanks