Scared to give birth

Ok so I'm nearly 34 weeks and baby girl is 3 kilos !!! I know ultrasounds can be off but my son was 4.5 kg or 10 lbs I had an epidural and thank god as I tore and bled (36 hour labour contributed as well)

Baby girl is measuring WAY ahead of her big brother

The doctors talking inducement over possible c section I will avoid a csection at all cost with my health and my weight I will not recover from a csection quickly or well

But I feel guilty about inducing its weird I know but I can't shake it

But then again how am I suppose to push James giant pumpkin through a lemon hole because even with an epidural .....ouch