Do I Stay or Should I Go?

TRIGGER WARNING**************************** It’s been a year of therapy after finding out i was raped by my dad. I haven’t spoken to him since and my family still doesn’t know about this.

It’s my grandads B-day next weekend and my favorite aunt (dads sister) who i miss so much wants to fly me home for the birthday.

I have mixed emotions about being around my dad after everything this trauma has put me through, (near suicide) I honestly don’t know if I ever want to be around him again. But I miss my sisters, my aunt, and all nieces/ nephews.

Do I miss ANOTHER family event like always or risk seeing my father/having to confront and tell my family about why I’ve gone MIA.

Please understand my hesitancy, what if they take his side?