Was it rape?

My ex boyfriend and I dated for a year. The first time I ever started dating him he started touching me... he wanted to have sex. I remember him always guilt tripping me after I said no... he would get mad. He would cry. He would threaten me. A year. A year of all that suffering. A year of abuse. My parents blamed me... I even blamed myself. I still do. He was abusive when angry... I just didnt want to anger him...